sky descends
night swallows day
you walk an unseen path
the fences in the fields dissolve
along with your feet
the nighthawks cry
you lost your voice
listening to the dark
waiting to be consumed
by your echo
your chest
a vacuum
empty of breath and heart
explodes
what is this longing
of what you do not know
some vague idea of peace or wholeness
what you seek is closer than your heartbeat
and that ache you are terrified to acknowledge
you feel it might break your heart if it is let loose
but it is not your heart
or your love
or your tears
or mine
there was never a line between you and you tears
it is merely these words that seem to create them
counting the tears
counting the days
counting the moments
until you will break free
but you must break into innumerable pieces
before realizing that there was never anything to break
nor anything to mend
nor anyone to be set free
looking for an empty mind
to find an imagined peace
ripples in water cannot be caught
saying its name
will not help you find the wind
you cannot hide from the sun
its searing light
embraces its reflection
in endless seas
it swallows you
breathes you
…exhales
it is love's light
that pierces your heart
sucks out your breath
shows you that there is no one
who has a heart
who loses or finds love
no lines can be found
no source to this echo
or this light
or this love
that sings your name
you cannot join
that which was never apart
you cannot mend
that which was never broken
between the inbreathe and out-breath
there is no between
there is no outside
nor in
there are no sides
blooming and wilting simultaneously
love sighs
petals fall
softly softly
between the lips and the kiss
there is not even nothing
The ache of our beautiful humanness is knowing we can never touch
walking on reflections
through this flowing dreamscape
this water ballet of color
and sound
wind soars down the canyon
longing to brush the desert with its kiss
this river of song
aching to be heard
echoes of memories appear and vanish
a flowing carpet of light and shadow
fills me
empties me
yet, there is no one to fill
no cup to empty
no shell to hold the ocean
of dreams
sun slides across the vault of sky
burning in its own reflection
drowning in the sea
as I did
long ago
the sea collided with sky
and crushed me with a tsunami
of love
my tears erased all boundaries
as space collided with space
and emptiness crashed thought emptiness
my face fell though its own reflection
through the mirror
of light and dark
not even a sideways glance could find me
in this conflagration of all my dreams
all my hopes
and fears
burst into bloom
and wilted on the pyre
where love lay bleeding
the scent of midnight ocean
seared the day
afterimages swirl
and seem to paint my lines
with sky in sky
there are no flowers to grasp
softly petals fall
through me
these words
sing me
and this love that fills all shadows with light
embraces me
after the birds swam into the day
she held a single feather
to decipher the song of the morning
a language she could not forget
or remember
she stood on the shore of infinity
longing for her own return
there is no map in this vastness
no safe harbor from the inevitable storm
you know you will drown
there will be no one left
to breathe
your heart will burn
this magnificence will claim
even your ashes
and what is left
when you've been to the other side of darkness
and light?
you reappear
you return to this lovers dance
weeping
as this searing brilliance never leaves
your heart your life
this love
was never yours
and the scent of summer rain in the desert
cannot quench your thirst
it pulls you along
drags you screaming
for another kiss
of bliss
yet the drops linger
clothed in the rainbows
of your beautiful desire
I see you dancing
naked in the rain
that cannot hide your tears
they have no labels
neither joy nor sorrow
what is this love you long for
it is neither mine nor yours
to give or receive
it is the echo of your loneliness
reflected in your beautiful tears
nothing can be held
in this great wind
that sweeps the blood from your veins
the marrow from your bones
and rips your face from your reflection
nothing is left
no path to walk along
no ground to stand on
no water to sail upon
or drown in
no air to breathe
not anyone to hold the clouds
that kiss their faces
sky deep in love
she longed for the flower of love to burst open her heart
to burn its essence into hers
to brand her
as loves true lover
she longed for the kiss of light
to erase the dark
where fear and loneliness flourished
she folded words into keys
and pushed them under the door
hoping her aloneness would be opened
the walls she felt around her heart
wept
she painted her windows with rainbows
to hide her nakedness from the garden
yet still felt the roses and their thorns
pierce her tenderness
she sent missives of love into the sky
each one kept her in a sealed envelope
a paper dream
that could not unravel her origami heart
every day she walked though a garden of flowers
blooming and wilting
petals falling along the path
she walked though endless beauty
she could not see
sun revealed her beauty
she could not see
loves infinitesimal beauty
was her longing for love
does the sky need an anchor
so it won't fly away in the wind?
where does the wind stop
and you begin
as it caresses your face
as you see the tree tops dancing?
is wind separate from the thought of wind?
are you separate from the thought of wind?
Every consonant articulates
In this unending syllable
does a mountain long to crumble into the sea
what is this ache we will do anything to resolve
looking endlessly for a key to a door we cannot see
consuming texts as wide as the ocean
listening at night for the song of the universe
standing on the edge of the precipice of uncertainty
afraid to face the vastness
terrified there is nothing there
or here
this torrent of love
will wash you away
you will crash on the rocks
on the edge of time
a tsunami of hope and fear
will build a mountain of words
and light the fire
it is certain death
to be burnt in this pyre
a great wind
will blow away your ashes
they will not gather in the cracks and crevices of knowledge
in the smithy
you will be turned into gold
in a world of gold
into light
in a world of light
into wind
in a world of wind
into sound
in a world of sound
into silence
in a world of silence
you will sing
looking for the face of god in the rear view mirror
missing your obvious beauty
trying to listen
when you are the listening
trying to separate the shimmering light
from the water
trying to find the dance
without a dancer
and love
without lovers
her crown had toppled
jewels strewn everywhere she looked
the anchor loosed itself
no map or wheel to guide her
on this shimmering sea of dreams
looking for truth
she found only an empty shell
the sound of her blood roaring
the nautilus exploded
into infinite iridescent shards
piercing her heart
she was left standing
watching her hands dissolve into the sunset
one foot in the sand
the other lost at sea
This stillness is within the wind
And is the flowing wind itself
This stillness is inside your heart
And is your heart song flowing
This stillness cannot be missed
As it is the missing of it
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