Sunday, December 30, 2018

Surround sound of love

weeds climb crumbling statues
broken pedestals in the dirt
naked faces
bits of clouds
fall into their shadows
sky is never hidden in sky
I am dreams and memories forgotten
yellow blossoms falling

what is the name of this life this light this wondrous warmth
pouring through me as me
there is no name that the wind calls itself


When you realize that you and love are made up
There is no distance



waterfalls echo in the canyon
blossoms tumble
sky falls through your reflection
tendrils of emptiness climb into the air
untie the horizon
as the heartbeat of time
loses its rhythm
the vowels fall out
of the hymn
the angels sing
I love you
it is your own voice
your own caress
your own eyes
lose themselves
in, as, and through your own beauty






Not even utter emptiness exists
I find only an Unfathomable blankness
Neither a looked at
Nor a looker
Yet
How truly bittersweetly sublime that I can only see a shimmering reflection of my own beauty through your beautiful eyes...
It is like the gates of heaven opening
Love unfurled
Deep kisses from within and without
The erasing of all imaginary sides
And this dance
Of you
Of me
Of we
Of echoes sliding through this very song
Falling in love




This feeling of seamlessness is like love
There is a longing to share it
As I am love’s longing to love

I have become the love I longed for



long moon night
dreams itself
gate of clouds opens
wings of feathered moonlight paint
a directionless kiss of echoes
words flow down the sidewalk
and pool in silent shadows
gathering color and light
to sail into the dream
and alight on soundless shores
singing the chorus of you and me and we
falling in love through your eyes
this wondrous fairy tale
this passion play of watercolor dreams
this ballet of light and shadow
of day and night
and all things
swoons through this mind stream
painting time into a love song
that sings itself with every word
just like this says my heart
as it explodes and implodes
into itself


walking along this thin stretch of beach
footless
starlight reveals all is treasure
clouds do not veil even the faintest of hearts
I see love shimmering everywhere
the empty waters
glowing


This longing is most beautiful
It is who we are



moon pours though wind
and trees
pools on the sidewalk
flowing echoes
dance

I am reflections
a water color thought dream
painted on a river
with water
light flows through light
rippling dreams
memories of love
and love lost
seamless
joy and sorrow merged
there is no one to feel them
no one dances
no one leads or follows
no one here
or there
no self
no other
no this
nor that
no things
nor non things
how can I catch what has no edges or center
nor any substance at all
and sail its reflection into your heart
when it is mine


wind blows rain
sunlit tears
there is no glass
in this window



petals of moon fall through sky
through the lace of trees
through their patterns on your face
through your lips
your tongue
your heart
drops
into an ocean without end
or beginning
always ending
this song of love
always beginning
the song of you
as you fall into fathomless depths
liquid space flows through you
as you
wind sighs its name-less song
here, love whispers, there
there is no place
there is no time
there are no edges
no lines
no verses to recite
or remember
you are this soaring dream of memory
of love falling through love



shadow birds rise up the canyon walls
and disappear
watching the hawk
swoop and swirl
and spiral higher and higher
until I can no longer see him
such amazing vastness
within
without
wind flows through sky
sky flows through sky
dances in the tree tops
mirroring on the shimmering stream
sky pours over my feet
I am sky light reflection
a silhouette of echoes
dancing in the canyon
without a name there is no sky
nor wind
nor me



We are everyone’s stories tattered and falling apart and re weaving themselves into this sumptuous dream... woven with love’s memories
This edgeless fluid light tapestry of I am blossoms into the thousand petaled flower of we are
Continually blooming and fading
Always beginning
Always ending
Never beginning
Never ending
Time paints a mirror and you fall through
Along with your reflection
And time itself

I don’t get how one can live as emptiness overflowing ....
But it does take getting used to... at first I would look at people as I do
Loving them soooooo deeply
And men would think I wanted them
Women would turn away
I hide it now



In India they go around saying all is god
Yet if all is god why do they need to cleanse their sins?

Once it’s realized that life does itself, that there are no things or non things
No self
No other
No personal volition
That no imaginary character is the instigator of her thoughts feelings actions or beliefs.... the idea of sin
Lol
Tears
Yet most feel that their existence is somehow wrong
That their thoughts and feelings and actions should be different
And they spend their entire lives trying to change themselves

How wondrous to know that no one is broken
That the world is not broken...
that it’s all sublimely beautiful




Inter related is as far as the intellect can go
Liquid space 
Liquid light 
Liquid colors 
Flowing 
Without movement or non movement 
Edgeless centerless seamless indivisible.... all words seem to divide what is not a what

No solids no space no reference points whatsoever
Feels like love 
But unlike all ideas we had of love before


Knowing there is no you or other 
Is the end of lines 
Yet we need imaginary lines to touch 
To love
How wondrous this imaginary worded world where love kisses itself through our eyes  our lips our smiles our tears

The empty moon inside your heart 
Cannot hold light 
Nor shadow 

Dusk flowers in the shadowland 
Wind beats on these tattered shutters 
Dark cannot hide your emptiness 
Nor your tears



No form 
No emptiness 
No colors 
Dancing 
Yet
Just this 
Form
And light 
And 
Emptiness
Dancing 

No you
Nor me
Nor love
Dancing 
Yet 
Just this 
You 
And me 
And 
Love 
Dancing



We are reflections 
Woven from afterimages of memory 
Translucent day dreams flowing through light 
Time slid into its own shadow 
Love weeps
Hearing it’s echo in your voice 



There is no eternal self 
There is no self 
Or time



cloud floating
mountains
distance collapses
never and forever collide
love blossoms
petals fall
walking through forests of echoes
eyes ablaze
wonder abounds

solids fall into space
space dissolves
liquid light streaming
suspended as nothingness
and loving light and shadow
and colors 
dancing
surround sound of love



Was it the sunrise or the sunset that shattered your heart into infinite pieces of mirrored sky?
Or was it your own love that stole your reflection and hid it in the rainbow mists circling the moon....
Late that night it fell into endless sea...
And capsized all ideas of up
And down 
Joy
And sorrow 
Love
And love lost 

Nothing was gained 
Nothing was lost 
There were no sides to your reflection 
Nor middle...

There was nothing to remember 
Nothing to forget 
This liquid love dance 
Was all and everything 
And nothing at all

Thursday, December 20, 2018

There is no distance

Tears light up this floating world
We find ourselves as reflections in each other’s eyes
And I do not exist outside of this love



Inner wing
Outer wing
There is no one soaring
I am the knowing/feeling of flight
sky collapses into itself
slip stream of love



A glimpse of what is not a what
Leaves you breathless
Dizzy...
Running for shelter
But there is none
Nor is there a void
No harbor can be found
There is no one to hide
Love an empty shell
Singing the song of vast rolling oceans
And ancient sands
And wind blown songs
Vast
Measureless
Directionless
Without time or space
Or emptiness

Heaven opened its wings
Love swallowed the world
And you
Skipping starlight across an edgeless sea
Unfathomably deep
Farther than distance itself
How far is love?

And the waves crashing
Light streams over our shoulders
From the smiley cat moon




What you’re talking about is not even unspeakable or a mystery or emptiness...
without thought there is not even anything
there is no before thought or outside of thought
It is the knowing feeling of no solidity of the emptiness of all thing-ness
It’s not even a void
it’s not even an it
Only through the thought stream made of shared learned words do things seemingly arise....



You are THIS VERY THOUGHT STREAM...
you are this flowing thought stream that names it self thought and names it’s self flowing
Without this imaginary separation there is no awareness of being aware
You are this fairy tale
The dream
That your brain creates

There is an un deniable indefinable aliveness that is inseparable from the flow of awareness/perception.

The dream of objectified separation is created by thought
All thingness is created by thought
All imaginary separation is mentally fabricated
You remain as a fairy tale
Who else ya gonna be
You are the fairy tale
As well as sun and dogs
Love and beauty
All made up



Words crochet night
Into this shadow dance of song
A cloak of moonlight seems
To hide your nakedness
Falls gently into a sweep of leaves
And wind
memory paints the dancer
And dance
Of day
Of night
Broken by light
And dark
Two words
Like you
And me
And wind pouring down the canyon
Can you hear it dancing in the autumn leaves
Playing in the street
With forgotten children
Laughing



I am Wind
Delicate and fierce
I am Windblown
Wind tenderly kissing wind
Through my eyes
And ears
And feathers
These winged
Wind songs
Soaring
The sound of ancient mountains
Falling
Of all hearts
Weeping
Of all smiles
Laughing
Of all eyes
Shining
Reflections
Without mirrors
Love recognizes itself
Through a sideways glance
In your eyes
Weeping at the beauty
Of beauty


Low slung train whistle
empty streets
Crows fly up




I am a river of song
of memories sliding down an empty street
of echoes of yesterday painted with moonlight
reverberating through closed doors and windows
through walls and ceilings and floors
through these castles made of thought
collapsing into this sea of dreams
where dancers dance through the long silver night
and see their reflection
touching
feeling their aliveness
in this love light streaming through each others eyes

where wind and shadows and light
pour through light
where joy and sorrow and love
pour through love
where wonder left her kiss upon your lips
as you mouthed the words to a song you have never sung
nor heard
but felt in every breath
in every heartbeat
in the depths of your being
where you were terrified to go
afraid of your own emptiness
and the emptiness of love

where even the longest night
and the longest day
cannot reach
the end of sky
of the belief in time
is the beginning
it is right here
the beginning of love



And my hands combed the night trying to trace the stars as they bloomed and dissolved in the beauty of their own echoes...
As my voice plummeted into a darkness without tears I heard a distant song that had never been veiled by darkness or light, or the plumes of morning brushing away my outstretched fingers 
Trembling at the kiss of light...

It was love that ripped the edges of emptiness 
Of shadows soaring through darkness 
And starlight falling through itself...
Of a vastness without number or name
Of an infinite beauty that swallowed all things 
The puppy dying on the sidewalk
And the drunken man weeping
And the wet hotness sliding down the face of the moon
I am reflections
Memories dissolving 
Facets of a spinning jewel that has no substance 
Not even light

Looking out looking in
The river of wet
In wet
Slides into a shoreless sea
Unfathomable depths collapse into a soundless sound
Where even sky can no longer see itself
Yet seems to shimmer just so
Poised on the banks of no tomorrow 
No one looks for her reflection
Yet she weeps 



The wave crashed into itself stunned by its own beauty



Winged lace of light falls gently through its own reflection
Through your fingertips starlight dances
Through your eyes love writes a million songs
Magic beyond magical
This waking dream of light and shadow
And color
Of wind soaring through its own flight 
This Dancing dream world
This love ballet 
That kisses you as you kiss it
Through these words
On the tip of your tongue
Deep in your belly 
deep in your heart
That has no center or edge 
They taste their own magnificence 
These vowels that hold no sound
These consonants that do not shatter the sky
But paint your unutterable beauty
A watercolor swirls through its own iridescence
Nothing can be said
But love 


The loss of meaning and non meaning and anyone to whom it could have significance...
Leaves no one to be free or bound


Freight train through my heart 
Rolling thunder of love 
Crashes all imaginary walls 
Into an atemporal kiss
Dissolving into itself 
Like this 
Says the ocean 
Wet in wet in wet in wet
The horizon untold itself from the story 
That wrote our lines 
Hung like yesterday’s moonbeams 
Never hidden by their own shadows
Light flows into light 
And I recognize your smile 



We are all basking in each other’s beautiful sunsets.



shimmering mountain shadows
sorrow of endless seas
rush of sun
on your iridescent wings
we fly between this wind song
and the breath of love

First crows 
Ancient temple chants 
Drift though the morning window 
Rhythm of the fan...
One dog barks 
What song is not magical?
Who could hold onto the night 
Or save the dawn until midnight? 
You are the song of day sliding into night
A reflection of moonlight on the shimmering sea
Light falling into light
A brush of wind sailing into wind 
Through your eyes 
The universe appears 
And love and beauty soar 
Rushing roaring fleeting flowing dancing 
I melt into your eyes 


When you realize that you and love are made up
There is no distance






Tuesday, December 11, 2018

I do not exist outside of this love


I am the loving of you
And I love that


sky above
sky below
the sound of clouds
flowering
dust devils swirl through my reflection
the road is a mirage
I dance



in these ancient winds
time lost its shadow
falling through a photograph
of wind



I say, ‘I love you’, knowing and feeling there is nothing here... nothing there...
Not even an infinite void, empty of space and time and emptiness itself...
Simply a baseless hologram of reflections of reflections, echoes of echoes singing this love song of you and me and we.



where is the gateway to endless sky?
where is the end to its reflection?
through mist and cloud and stormy nights
through moon shattered daydreams
collapsing on the mountain

through thunder rolling across the seas
and the scent of love pierced by lightening
through shadows pouring down the valley
night pools under tall trees
and falls into its own coolness

through false fronts on cloud castles
built of dreams of tomorrow
mirrored with tinfoil
and sun
glass melting
reflections falling
songs burst the walls of love
silence swoons
into itself

there is no end nor beginning
nor anyone to enter or leave
heaven was never split
into earth
and sky




he wore snapshots of sky
and gathered pictures of sea
he tried to pin songs
on his mirror
so that he may hear the ocean of sky

he tried to hold fistfuls of light
so that he may never lose the day
but hands open
hearts open
day fades
sky sings
and he falls through the words
once again
and disappears
into night
into sleep
where there are no words
nor him



and the crickets sang until the stones vibrated with night...
and the temple bells echoed across the moon bejeweled terrace of winds...
No one answers
No one calls
Yet my heart sings




night reaches out its arms
folding sea into sky
shadows tumble down the mountain
coalesce in the hush that consume
dreams of tomorrow and memories of yesterday
wrapped in the sleeping sea

how strange and beautiful that a heart can break
and not need repair
I am in love with this bittersweet melancholy
that kissed me
and left her calling card
it is my name I hear in this silence
that permeates all songs
echoes of midnight
daylight
break on the beach
and recede
waves of joy and sorrow
merge
and sunlight shimmers on your beautiful tears



distant as midnight moon
neither near nor far
love swallows empty flowers
color blooms in your mouth
as waves of falling leaves
reflect your sunset on endless seas

autumn bones upon the path
naked as the sound of sunlight
wings unfurl in the hollow glen
dissolve into sky

words fall apart into letters
into lines and squiggles
into vowels that have never held a sound
and consonants that have never blocked the sun
forming windows
side-less prisms
of ricocheting wonder

what color is all color
what color is the sound of moon



ancient poems slide down the sidewalk
blossoming
wilting
picked by no one
reflect the sunset
of no tomorrow
breathe a story
of echoes

pooling in deep shadows
words collide with time
and space
and your heart
explode through your eyes
your lips
your kiss

just an evening song
kissing you into itself
falling through a back beat
pausing to listen
there is nothing but silence
without you



I am this song
Kissed by wings of fire
Devoured by love
This river of thought
Sings itself
Just
Like
This
Words blossom and paint flowers
and endless sky reaching
Nowhere
Imaginary banks hold the current of desire
And crumble into words

A silhouette of wonder
Falls through itself
Through these tears
That remember me
A fallen leaf
Scoots across the sidewalk
Empty footfalls
Color the night

An echo of starlight
Gazes upon itself
Swooning through
A photograph of moon
Reflecting these waters
Laughing
Weeping
Tears fall in love
With wetness itself
Love falls in love
With love
Through these eyes
Through these words
This river of song
That sings me

There are no things to come or go
No things to hold onto
And no one to do so



love exists only in this mentally fabricated world...
and I am the loving of you

That’s how I find myself
As a reflection in your eyes
We exist only in the imaginary spaces Inbetween imaginary things
All lines are drawn by words

Knowing and feeling all thingness is imaginary feels like love
At first I called it
‘Falling through the cage of words’
Then I discovered I was the cage
It had merely become transparent...
the FEELING of separation had disappeared



Leaves and wind dance
They are not separate
No one leads and no one follows
The music is in your mind
As well as the dance
wind ballet falls through itself
Leaves no footprint
In wind

Cool mountain shadows stream down the long canyon
The fishermen look up
Silvery stream
Disappears

A fish
A leaf
A whirlpool of echoes


Morning sings me
It feels like a love song
Painting echoes with sky
On endless skies...
Tears
Flow into the river
Greet their own saltiness in the sea




Is there night under day?
Day under night?
Afternoon rain
Autumn wind
Falling stars
under the clouds
Petals on the sidewalk


Love is an idea
Like you
when that is truly realized
That all thingness is made up
not much can be said
yet I am the singing of it



Meaning...
Non meaning...
All those ideas are like old black and white movies... running in an empty theater
We are overtones and undertones... afterimages of a love dream
Blooming
Wilting
There is no hand to pick this flowering
The coming sunset paints your hands
Your beautiful face
Slides across and off the glass...
Time wrote your name on the river
Kissed love into your eyes
Your reflection drowned in its own wetness
Subsumed by your unutterable beauty
And emptiness

Life is always the first and last kiss
Feels like love kissing itself
Through these very lips
Seeing itself
Through these very eyes
Singing itself
Through this love song
That sings us
Like this



cloud flowers bloom and fade
afterimages flow into shadows
dusk reveals
fireflies
starlight
shimmering waters
reflect love's echo
it is never hidden
hanging in midnight garden
suspended in long moon night
cutting the roots of light and dark
pouring into the deepest abyss
stillness breaks
love grows
love falls
sweet breath of morning
I swoon into your smile



Leaves fall into the stream
Memories swirl into midnight
Looking in
Looking out
Nothing but wetness

Wind falls into the stream
Falls through itself
I am these words
Mystery
A fallen shadow
Unknown
A rusted Tin soldier
Unfathomable
Yet another cast aside toy
Lost in the dark
Where I once stumbled
Looking for my footfalls
Aching for this silence
That could not hear itself

Tears cannot taste themselves
I find myself in your eyes
Deep deep rivers
Pour wetness into wetness
Whirlpools of echoes drown
Endless skies
Edgeless seas
The horizon weeps
In your heart
In your smile
In these words
That sing us
In love as love through love



mountain
its only name
no one looks in the guidebook
for a path
to its ancient rounded summit

lost in mist
and meandering clouds
no one wanders
or weeps
yet tears reflect the beauty
of this mountain song

through our eyes
love falls in love with itself
memories of mountains
and trees
and endless skies
we are these waterfalls of love
this dream of dreaming
flowing through itself
through these words
through this stream of thought
we seem to appear
knowing there are no mountains
nor you nor me to climb them
nor love to sweep us out of the dream of separation
yet we live and love
and watch the noon time sun burn the mist
off its naked peak

sublime this love
of bittersweet sorrow
this path of echoes that no one wanders
sings our names
tumbling mountain stream




Inner wing
Outer wing
There is no one soaring
I am the knowing/feeling of flight
Sky collapses into itself
Slip stream of love



Some belief remains
Yet there is no feeling of a believer

No thinker feeler doer...
just an unknowable unknown and a streaming thought stream seemingly creating all this and that and love...

and I am this river of song... of shared learned words.... painting this wondrous imaginary world and someone to have one
As substantial as an echo of an echo painted with forgotten melodies... that no one ever heard or sang....
a ballet of shadows in the dark...
of clouds soaring across a white winter sky.... 



Tears light up this floating world
We find ourselves as reflections in each other’s eyes
And I do not exist outside of this love


















Thursday, November 29, 2018

Who walks footless

starlit ocean
sings a song on this keyboard
can you see her
pinned to the night

love is everyone's eyes
weeping
like this
your very last breath
sings



no one wears this flowing diaphanous gown of mirrored moon glow
Woven of murmuring echoes and reflections of memories
Scratchy recordings of old songs bouncing down the lane of shadows and across the still waters
Pale and dusty light shimmering through the morning mist...
Always clearer than clear 
That there is nothing to be caught in moonlight 
Not even the moon.... 



painting rainbows on the window will not hide the storm within
or without
where is the line between your face and its reflection
this tsunami has always been hanging over your heart
glass is liquid tears
love waits to catch a glimpse of itself
in your eyes

sun and moon slide across the heavens
that ruptured 
when eternity collided with time
in torrential rain
sky opens
rainbows and diamonds
slide into your liquid eyes
and you are never quite the same



soaring with the pigeons
and the lapping waves
reflecting the last echo of sunset
moon at my back

surround sound
of deepening shadows
never more or less
than this last kiss



moon and mountain float on the waters
we are the shimmering of this floating world



Trying to capture the space between nothing and everything 
Joy merged with sorrow and she never looked back




Dancing on a feather 
Suspended as nothingness....
Caressed from the inside 
outside
Seamless transparent being ness 
sides and middle melted...
Walking unabashedly naked
In love as love through love... 
Stunned at this imaginary thingness....
Clouds forming and dissolving
There is no backdrop of sky
Waves crashing and receding 
There is no underlying sea...



Where is the space between the breath and the song?
Between the lips and the kiss?
Between the wind and your cheek?
Between the thing and the word?
Silence sings itself
Looking out
Looking in
All apparent thingness
Reflections in your eyes

Echoes have no source
Rippling freely
River sees its beauty
Through your eyes
Hears it’s song
Through your lips
Love recognizes itself
In your tears
And weeps 



Endless sky slides over endless mountains 
Vastness echoes your aloneness
You long for a place
To rest
Darkness streams through you
Starlight flows through you
Illuminates the empty ground
As you fall through
A million nights
A million days
A million reminders



It may dawn all at once or over time 
Either now 
Or when you’re dying 
But wait
You are already dying aren’t you?
That all that effort and achievement never led anywhere...
Death still comes
And life was always doing itself...
All a wondrous magical show of light and shadow 
And color...
Leaves sprouting and falling 
Wind...
Suns and moons sliding across the vault of sky 
All unimaginably breath taking 
Even the arguments 
And illness
Love and love lost....
All the stories ever told all this symphony of perception .... flowing be-jeweled mirror allowing awareness to be aware of being aware....
Alive and knowing it
And knowing you know...
You may weep 
And laugh 
And I will always love you  



Sky shadows fall into sky
Surround sound of flowers blooming
She slips quietly quietly
Softly into petals falling
Leaves and crumpled newspapers
Swirling down the sidewalk
A poet’s song 



flipping through the book of love
words held in the bottom of your hand
snapshots of the river
laid out to dry on the sand

walking barefoot on the banks
slipping in the wet ink
falling in love with the falling
learning the river song
rolling your r's
like a true Spaniard



stillness of sky-less sky
half hitch moon shimmering 
tinsel on melting snow
smell of young earth
in desert spring
you can hear seeds sprouting
and old limbs stretching
down
to kiss them

wind beckons
and you follow
wisp of cloud
swallows the moon
the wind
and you



winged lace sky
woven by tall sweeping branches
sunlight filters through my breath 
awe paints this garden
suspended as silence reaching through
bottomless earth and unending sky
the heavens split when time lost its footprint
on the vast unending sea
beauty and love entered the dream-scape
when the shadows of night fell through themselves
into this a-temporal brilliance
that had been ignored

pigeons swoop into the air
caress the lake in ever widening circles of joy
spiraling galaxies of wind blown songs
through these lips
these words
that seem to catch the sunlight
like the moon
kissing itself on the water
my reflection vanishes
merges into infinite
soaring 
lace winged 
sky



sky above
sky below
the sound of clouds
flowering
dust devils swirl through my reflection
the road is a mirage
I dance



in these ancient winds
time lost its shadow
falling through a photograph
of wind



mist hangs heavy on bent grasses
song of morning dreams...
where is the edge of heaven
where does the mountain slice the sea?
no one's hands untied the stars
no one's tears unleashed the seas
who knows seas and stars and mountains
swirl only in thought?
who walks 
footless?



bathing in wrap-around star showers
mountain hides in golden clouds
marrow of love swallows sun's flame 
here, you enter the song
losing your footfalls
in the echo of night

gaze into the darkness
and see your reflection
mystery embraces itself
flies through the center of the flower
petals falling
wind breathing
color fading
lips moving
soundless

no heaven
to soar in
no earth
to swallow you
no vast unending seas
to sail upon
no secret harbor from the storm
it is upon you
always




Behind a wall of fear lies the universe...
Waiting for a kiss


Everywhere I look I see love 
Fall into it 
And swoon in your fathomless beauty



First bell echoes across the lake
Pigeons race to circle their reflection...
Placeless morning
What is left of night?
Memories hide in the shadows
Invisible dancers slide across the road
As day passes

High above
The heavens open their winged doors
And swallow the lover’s shadows
You can feel their hearts beating madly 
It is your heart trembling
In love with the heartbeat of day 
And night



The taste of taste inseparable from this exquisite flavor
Delighted at my own delight
Amazed at this amazement
This sublime love of love 



Layers of liquid light
The shimmer of butterfly wings
A million petals
Falling


Moonlight dances in the empty garden
Her silent song of sighs
Flows
She pours music
Through your window
And waits
To gaze at her reflection
Through your liquid eyes 


Winter sifts through autumn’s end
Trees clothed in midnight weave empty skies
Shadows bathe in this cup of moonlight 
Pouring echoes into the river of night
No one stands at the edge of memory
As it falls across my path
Traces of time appear
And disappear
Between the rhythm of everything
And nothing
We dance 



Clouds enhance the view of moon
Reflections kiss themselves through your eyes
Meeting you
Loving you
Missing you
You are a sonata running barefoot through this mind stream 




time fell at my feet
I watched its shadow
swirl across the path
evening in the garden
last crow

from across the lake 
temple bells
surround sound of past and future
erase the inscription of echoes
written on water
a fairy tale of wonder
slides into whirlpools
and out
water into water

there never was a girl
waiting for the night
to hide her tears
waiting for moon-glow
to find them



tears
the river of heaven
how beautiful 
the face of love


mountains
memories
clouds
falling
deep green pines fringe the shadows
nothing is hidden
nothing is revealed


where did you lose your heart
was it ever yours?
or was it
a forgotten flower
blooming?


a thousand years of rain
and snow
and wind
and tears
and blood

fallen leaves 
and petals
and sunsets
carpet the ground

the rush of stillness
sings through it all
it cannot be trampled
or held
it cannot be concocted
by chanting spells
or reading books
or sitting for a thousand years
you cannot wait for it
or gain it
or throw it away
knowing this
is the dawn of love



drifting wind and clouds
I fall through autumn
I fall through sky
sky falls through sky

I fall through clouds
clouds fall though clouds
I fall through wind
wind falls through wind
I fall through my reflection
of this shimmering mirror
there are no sides
nor middle
as water falls though water
ripples fall though ripples
my echo in the night
falls through itself

I fall though light 
light falls through light
I fall though space 
space falls through space

through mountains
through canyons
through tall trees reaching up
though deep roots reaching down
through vast seas leading nowhere
through all directions
falling up
falling down
the falling falls through the falling
the dance falls through the dance
in no thing-ness
the sky and my hair have turned white
there are no tracks
and no one to be lost or found
in winter's snow







 








Sunday, November 18, 2018

Ocean of song

Where is yesterday’s sky
Where are the tears of tomorrow
When is your heart
Not weeping

I see the footprint of my heart
Hanging in it’s own shadow
Blossoming into golden
autumn leaves falling




softly softly moonlight laps the water's edge
quail run up the canyon
who rode across the sunset
to gaze at her reflection
and lost herself in mountain echo
stretching its arms into the sea?

words skim the shallows
dive into the interior
dissolve the skin of sound
disappear into the thick of light



Such are we... memories swirling into and through their own heart shapes... like the smoke rings my mother used to make



finger combing the air
there is not even breath to catch
nor anyone to wear
the wind
mouthing the words
that no one can sing
they lie on the tip of my tongue
as they swallow me

winged iridescence
hovers on the rose
the nectar of life
the marrow of love
cannot be distilled
or drunk
yet I am intoxicated



Quite simply it felt like dying
The sky shattered as I fell through its mirror
Every shard pierced my heart... I discovered there were no sides to the mirror
No middle
No time dimension causality... no things or non things whatsoever
And yet I never fought it
It always felt natural
I knew when the armeggeddon was happening that I could not do anything
And the resulting seamlessness
The big wow
I knew had always been the case... so indescribably perfect
Knowing perfection and non perfection were made up
I thought many must know this
Yet I have found only a very few

I never thought about turning back... I had no one with which to share this... no sage or friend or place of refuge
At the end I was mourning my own death
Although I did not know it then
My heart hurt worse than when my mother died
Had no idea this was enlightenment...



cold moon skies
wind blown clouds
sail through tree shadows
and the waters
rippling

blooming and wilting
falling though itself
first breath
last breath
first kiss
last kiss
life has kissed me with death

shattered mirrors on the pavement
lost to the night long ago
golden leaves of yesteryear
crumbling
I am fading memories
of love's reflection

I have no home
other than your beautiful eyes




sunset suspended on golden wings
shadows falling through clouds
moon waits behind the mountain...
who waits for the sun's return
whilst basking in its warmth and light?

floating
in the absence of waiting
there are no edges to this love
no words to this song
light and shadow flow
an elegant pas de deux
no one dances
yet I watch them pirouette
and swoon through me
echoing my reflection
painted with air
in air

last bird sings
echoes in the dark
is there mountain
when I cannot see it?
is there wind
when I cannot feel it?
through the window
not even moon
only my reflection
and the Christmas lights
dancing



and how to measure the distance between echoes when the canyon dissolves...



hollow flute
echoes your bittersweet melancholy
morning reveals
golden marigolds withering
last nights candle
red wax spilled on the window sill
early fog lifts
smoke from the fireworks last night
the pilgrims cooking fires by the lake
and the bodies burning

on the road out of town we see
a dead calf ripped apart by hungry dogs
we saw him yesterday
frayed rope around his neck trailing in the dust
they throw the dead ones out here
away from the bustling village
they burn their own dead
desert winds blow the ashes
holy men smear them on their bodies
hoping to recognize this beautiful impermanence

we are memories
watercolors on the river
afterimages of fading snapshots
ricocheting wonder
that we can feel so deeply
love so intensely
this intimacy
has no boundaries



desert blooms
golden dust swirls
ants scurry across the sands
leaving a necklace of footprints
raven in the thorn trees
punctuates the trail of music
leading from the ancient town
words slide in and out of focus
of all who long to merge with god
songs of fervent longing color endless paths
circling circling

I wander as wonder itself
knowing there is no god nor anyone to merge with him
clothed in the shadow of wind



pigeons
startled into flight
scattered sunlight
pours through fields of marigolds
their scent flowers and is plucked
wilting into ten thousand kisses
falling through these ancient streets
echoes of love songs

crow sits on a electric line
a timeline between earth and shadow
between these words
and the sound of love's breath
on the window
morning mist
wrote my name
looking in
looking out
here and there collided
the glass shattered
every shard reflected love's name
as they pierced my heart
again and again
until it was no longer mine



cold moon falls behind the canyon
dream-scape of night collapses into itself
this abyss that cannot be crossed
illuminates itself
staccato of consonants are its running streams
wind its reflection of vowels
streaming

dawn dreams my empty shadow
black, a prism of all color, sings
rainbow's echo beats my heart
we are leagues of stars
leading nowhere
we never could hold moonlight
and no longer cared to merge
as our silhouettes had lost their shadows
in this edgeless flowering brilliance

I can only remember the elegance of the dance
this song of love and endless oceans breathing
we danced one lofty night
as our nakedness entwined
alone
together



autumn leaves
golden blooming
falling
winged shadows swooping
layers of light filtering through light
melting sunlight on the waters
an echo of your hand
across the canyon
I am memories of love burning
how fragrant the years fading
roses in the snow



how hot the tiger's breath
how tight the dragon's embrace
to split heaven's door
and wrench sunlight
from diamonds?

this is always
our first and last kiss

I see the fruit bats fly in
to where the egrets just left
wheeling in spirals across the holy lake
ancient songs in their mouths
wing spans as wide as that distant mountain
we once climbed
there is no measurement to this side-less love
no path to the top

feet move
hearts beat
just one kiss
of moonlight
and the hills
dance


ocean of sound flows through me
floating through multi layered translucent rainbow iridescence
I am its song and its reflection
naturally perfect brilliance unending
without beginning
ever blooming 
ever wilting
without time or timeless-ness
without movement or permanence 
every petal falls
coloring the waves of life with death unceasing
the gaze of no tomorrow leaves liquid eyes
burning turning flowing flowering
weeping
looking out
looking in
this edgeless water color dream-scape
of wet in wet
dances
like this